Thursday, August 04, 2011

A blog that began about physical weight...

Emotional weight and baggage can be just as troubling as the physical stuff.  Although this isn't news to me, it still boggles my mind.  My mind, however, has had an easier time of staying boggled lately.

One thing people think about when others are unemployed is that it must be nice to have so much spare time on one's hands.  Sadly, the spare time is excessive, only feeding the brain with moments to ponder tons of crap with.  That is the pitfall I have to recover myself from.  Too much time to think.

When I leave the house, I inevitably spend money that I cannot afford to spend.  Whether it's adding a few things to the grocery list or buying a meal, it's money that need to stay in our pockets...just to leap from them when bill paying time arrives.  I adore spending the extra time with the pups, though!  If I was physically able to walk them, I don't think I"d be complaining as much about the time.  I would be able to get some exercise & spend time with them all at the same time.  However, I don't have the money to get the pups and I into obedience classes and without those, I cannot handle the two of them solo.  Hubby gets up & walks them daily, so that is bonding time away from me, which really does break my heart.  Can't seem to win on that one.

Trying to get things done around the house with the pups can be challenging, but I try sometimes.  At other times, I think, "why bother?" and know that my depression has crept in once again.

I really don't know what to do this time.  I thought I'd be employed by now.  I am on my 3rd extension of unemployment and still struggling to find work.  I really wish I knew how long this was going to last.  Anyone have a crystal ball????