Weight-y Issues

I know that my weight is impacted by my depression.  It is not a stretch of the imagination to think that the more I get down, the more trips I make to the fridge.  Also, depression keeps me at home.  I don't like leaving the house a lot when m depression "flares up" and I have access to my kitchen all day long. 
Another issue that plays a part in this is my unemployment.  I stay at home and wish I was elsewhere, bringing me down...starting the cycle. 

Trying to break this cycle requires a lot of planning...and, eventually, DOING.  The planning part I'm pretty good about.  I plan a ton of things.  It's the taking action that is tougher.  There is always a great excuse out there for not doing something.

I've passed on many things in life because the main reason I don't do things is that they pose too large a risk to me.  At least, that's what I think.  I didn't fly in a plane for years because of that fear.  Then, I got to such a low point in life that I didn't really mind if I died, as long as it was while trying to live.  I got aboard a plane headed to Las Vegas, held on tight, and loved it!  Coming back, our flight hit such turbulence that people were gasping loudly & throwing up.  Even Hubby, who didn't mind flying, was getting rather tense.  I dug my head into my headphones to concentrate on the humor of "Blades of Glory" so I could put all other sounds out of my head.  It was terrifying, but we made it.  That flight taught me to handle turbulence (though it still isn't a favorite time in the air for me) and I overcame most of my fear of flying.  It takes me just ACTING on it rather than thinking of it and planning all of the time.  However, with my unemployment and other current situations, all I feel I can do is plan.

Planning to diet & planning to exercise is simple.  Actually, I don't mind exercising!  I really like it and would rather do that than diet any day, but I know I need both.  Dieting is really rough when I am at home.  Have to work on psyching myself up for that one!

I hate how everything impacts my weight!